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slayers_desire) wrote2013-02-27 06:15 pm
slayers_desire) wrote2013-02-27 06:15 pm
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the case of the disappearing daughters ((Ed thread))
Rebuilding a community took a lot of time and dedication. It also required a lot of volunteers. Fortunately, April was able to visit her home universe occasionally to help. And when she did visit, she always brought a helpful hand.
Many times it was Clark, her husband. Today it was Ed, her friend and 'guardian'.
They were working on rebuilding a community center. Things were turning around slowly, but there was hope there. A hope that people were afraid would be lost in a split second.
Many times it was Clark, her husband. Today it was Ed, her friend and 'guardian'.
They were working on rebuilding a community center. Things were turning around slowly, but there was hope there. A hope that people were afraid would be lost in a split second.
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((Handwave the 'reuniting the families' part?))
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April was really proud of Ed, when all was said and done. And now with that worry about of the way, they were finally able to leave and head to Caritas.
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When they get to Caritas, he sits down at one of the tables with April and shucks out of his jacket and gloves, tucking the latter into his pocket and draping the former over the back of his chair, bearing his Automail arm... Winry's work. He's less worried about getting stares over it here, or freaking other people out. Caritas caters to the supernatural community, after all.
He doesn't know where to start, though. This whole thing is still so damned confusing, both emotionally and in that hormonal teenager-ness way. He just stares at his right hand, slowly moving the Automail fingers a little for a few moments, trying to figure out where to begin.
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((bedtime))
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"You've seen her... in a couple of the memories I showed you. On the shore of the river... she was the one who begged Mustang to stop." Ed's perceptions were imprinted on that memory when he showed it to her. The fact that he thinks her eyes are beautiful was imprinted on it... as well as the fact that he hates seeing her eyes filled with tears, as they had been at the time. He doesn't think she's one of those women who are pretty when they cry... because he doesn't like it when she's crying. The fact that, more often than not, he was the reason she was crying whenever he's seen her in tears may have something to do with that.
More than anything... he wants her to be happy, and to be safe. He wants to make her happy.
He flexes his hand around a bit more. "She's the one who designed and built my Automail... both the first set, when we were both 11, and this one. She's brilliant. Best Automail engineer in the galaxy." And he means it when he says that.
He's hesitant for a moment before he says, quietly, "You know... when Al and I were kids, we used to fight over her. Over which one of us would be the one to marry her."
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"So is the problem that you think you are betraying Al?"
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He sighs. "But part of it... is because she and I grew up with each other, and... right up until Al and I left to join the military and I started to get into adolescence... I used to think of her as something of a sister. And part of it is... she's my best friend, and I don't want to ruin that."
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He looks up at her and asks, tentatively, "...Is that how it started out with you and Clark? Were you guys just... really good friends at first, or... was it a 'love at first sight' kind of thing? 'Cause... I don't know, by the time I met both of you, you were already married, and the two of you are Soulmates, so I've always thought it must've been the latter for some strange reason."
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April shakes her head. "No. We didn't know each other as friends for long. When I first saw him, I admit I fell heads-over-heels for him."
"But at that time he was dealing with a lot in his life, including having feelings for Lana Lang, who he knew as a friend for quite a long time."
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"Mom and Dad were too... though I guess, before I found out why Dad left home, my resentment for him made me assume that he didn't really love Mom, even though she loved him."
He's quiet, for a moment, before he says, "I... do want to have that with someone. The kind of relationship you and Clark have. The kind of relationship Teacher and Sig have. The kind Mom and Dad had. And... Winry's the only person I can picture having that kind of relationship with." Another moment of silence. "There was a girl, back home... who thought she was in love with me because I'd been kind to her and tried to help her and... and cared about what happened to her, but... when she told me that, I balked, because some part of me went, 'What? No, that's not right, Rose can't be in love with me, because she's not Winry.'" He bites his lip and adds, "There've been girls at school who've asked me out a couple of times, too, but I've always turned them down... because the same thing happened."
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"He was able to be honest with me. That made a big difference."
"It is kind-of a weird story to how we first officially became girlfriend-boyfriend."
April listens to his comments about thinking about Winry. Then smiles, "Sounds to me that you love her. And that you want to be with her. That is not a bad thing, is it?"
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His breathing is a little bit tremble-y right now, and he's very quiet for several long moments, thinking it over in his head. He knows what he believes true love is. And when he thinks about it... there's no other way to look at it.
"Love is self-sacrifice... and so is devotion..." he says quietly. "When you told me Mustang was willing to die for me and Al, it completely shattered my mental picture of him. And I knew he must've loved me and Al as his own sons, because... because that's what love is to me. It's the willingness to throw yourself in front of a bullet for someone, to protect them at all costs, without hesitation and without consideration. That's how Al and I know we love each other, and why... why we never really felt a need to tell each other that before we got separated. It's a bit different now that we are separated, because I think we both realized we never said it enough, even though we don't feel it needs to be said. Victor told me that... even if you know something is true, doesn't mean you don't need to hear it being said out loud from time to time, and she's right." He shrugs. "Like down at the school, before we faced the Davrics. I knew you had my back, but I needed to hear it said out loud."
"And..." he closes his eyes, arms now trembling a bit too, making the Automail clatter a little. "...I am willing to do the same for Winry," he says, quietly, and there's something in his voice, like he never realized it before. "I'm willing to throw myself in front of a bullet for her. To give up everything for her, like I would for Al." His voice shakes a bit more. "So... there's no other way it could be. I do love her, because I'd die for her in a heartbeat. And... no, that's definiely not a bad thing, but... it's scaring the Hell out of me anyway."
((I'm pretty much of the same mindset as Ed is about Clark and Superman canon, because... well, I didn't start watching Smallville until after I started RPing with you and Clark-mun. So as I was watching the romance between Clark and Lana, and eventually Clark and Lois, develop on the show, I was always internally going, 'this doesn't feel right, because he's not with April' even though I know April and Clark aren't actually canon. But they are in my head, so watching Smallville has always thrown me off a little in that regard. ^^;))
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April listens to him talk about love, and self-sacrifice and devotion. And she tilts her head a little, placing a gentle hand on his clattering Automail. "Why? Why does it scare you?"
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Ed can't feel her hand there, resting on his right arm like that, but since he can see it there, it is still a comfort. He thinks about the question for a minute, and when he answers, there's a bit of distress in his voice. "I don't really know," he says. "Maybe... maybe part of it is those nerves everyone seems to get about developing romantic feelings for someone... both Bakura and Kat mentioned to me that one of the reasons it took them so long to finally start dating was because they were both scared the other didn't feel the same way, and they were scared that it wouldn't work out. Part of it's probably that... I'm worried that maybe she only thinks of me as a brother, or maybe she's already in love with Al, or... neither of us..." he shakes his head. "And... Winry and I are both such hot-heads. Even as best friends we always got angry at each other so easily..."
"...And I always seem to make her cry," he adds, voice dropping to a whisper. "I try to do something nice for her, but I end up flubbing it and hurting her instead, and I hate it when that happens, because more than anything (at least when it comes to her), I want her to be happy. Every time it happens, I swear to myself that I'll never make her cry like that ever again and somehow... I manage to do it anyway."
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"But don't be scared of loving someone. Of caring so much about them, that they are who you think about."
"And trust me, there will be times of tears, time of anger, time of happiness, time of stress. All these things must be experienced, and they will test your relationship. But they are worth it."
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