feels nice when you find direction

I must admit that I have been sleeping better. Perhaps it has something to do with dealing with the guilt over what happened with my mother, and finally getting a chance to say goodbye. Perhaps it was the glimpses into a future where Clark will be at my side, and me at his. Perhaps it was earning a part of Clark's heart that was never given to Lana, and finally putting to rest my fears about possible Lois-relationships.

Mostly... I think it was because that visit to the Manhattan art museum has really inspired me. And I would really like to take the steps to make art my career.

The only question that remains is... do I enroll into one of the many art schools here in Rome. Or do I attempt to enroll at Kansas State in Clark's world.

I am cautious about being too involved in a dimension that is not my home one. Especially if it seems like I am forcing my presence too much in Clark's life. I really don't want to seem pushy. Even when I can picture a future with him.